On the 6th Day of Christmas

On the sixth day of Christmas, the Father said to me, "I looked through time and saw you. I saw what I had created and poured out My love. I decided to give you everything from the beginning. Oh, Beloved, you are My poem of faith. I wrote your faith- My favorite love letter- and I finished it. The exhaustion upon the cross and the hope I held for you... I looked through time and held your face before My eyes. You gave Me the strength I needed to endure the agony that day upon the cross. Now, let Me be your strength. I endured shame. I took it and shredded it that day on the cross. Love wins Beloved! I wrote out your faith as a love letter hidden in time, but TODAY it is found, opened and read and re-read, and even still carries with it its fragrance. I gave to you your faith- the highest quality gift wrapped in fine linens, sealed with a kiss, and preserved by the oils of pressure I collected in the Garden of Gethsemane. You have had your time in the tomb- wrapped in linens and left for dead. It's time you RISE! Remove the grave clothes. Each step has been a chapter in your Faith Story. I Am a Perfector; what I put My hand to will be perfect. They are waiting for you, all the earth is, to see My demonstration of love in you. My final words to you are, 'It is finished!' Now let's begin! Every eye that looks upon you will see My Glory. The oils, the gifts, and the gold are now ready to be delivered because the impurities have been removed, fired 3x's, and now is the day of your visitation. Remain in Me. Glory Fire is burning in My people and I am about to launch them out over all the earth carrying gifts like Three Wisemen. Oh, Beloved, there is no better love story than ours. Faith is perfected in you already. Any weakness is like gold embossed lettering on the pages. I fortify My word promises with faith. That is the gold upon the pages of who you are to Me. So go forth in your faith! It was finished long ago- now, let's begin!" 12.6.2018 "We look away from the natural realm and we fasten our gaze onto Jesus who birthed faith within us and who leads us forward into faith’s perfection.[the pioneer and perfecter of faith] His example is this: Because his heart was focused on the joy of knowing that you would be his,[This was the joy of our salvation. He placed before his eyes the bliss we would forever share together with him, which empowered him to go through his agony.] he endured the agony of the cross and conquered its humiliation,[thinking nothing of its shame] and now sits exalted at the right hand of the throne of God!" Hebrews 12:2 (TPT with notes inserted).

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Continuing with the testimony of the manifestation of healing from MS and other revelations...

Like the author of Hebrews, I had to "look away from the natural realm," which included a list of people who had harmed me. Not everyone caused me harm, however, as a result of the rejection I experienced from the ministry and betrayal, I had isolated myself. I went looking for my healing in other things: vitamins, oils, ministries- not that those things are bad, but I felt betrayed by Jesus. Jesus was asking me to fix my gaze on Him, but at that point, I was questioning a lot like Eve (if you missed the beginning of my story click HERE) and asking Jesus, Did you really say you healed me? But healing couldn't come until I forgave.

We talk about forgiveness in religious circles so flippantly, as though the decision itself will erase the memory of the offense immediately. Religion says, Hurry up and forgive. God says, Give me your heart first, and I'll heal you. He wants us to willingly choose and unless our heart is included in the decision, it is nothing more than pressure to perform our Christian duty, and that is eating off of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. We know it's bad to hold resentment or act out of anger, our body knows it's bad too. We've been told to forgive and forget, a good sentiment, meanwhile, the memory of the offense reverberates within the caverns of our soul and the hurt boils up and when provoked explodes into an uncontrollable and inconsolable emotion. For me, that emotion was sadness.

My enemies

While I was involved in a prophetic school, we were given the assignment to prophesy over our worst enemy. I chose my stepfather. As a prophet, I find it most difficult to prophesy over someone I know. I have to take time to push away my own opinions so I can hear the Father's still small quiet voice.

I remember sitting in my office, pushing away the remnants of anger and terror and sadness and the Father began to speak. I had the choice to give the word to the recipient or just turn it in. I chose to mail it without a return address. This was the man who raped me, introduced me to Satanism and Paganism and who terrorized me from age 9 to 19, and even told my husband he couldn't marry me. But because of therapy, I had healed from many of the abuses, but the greatest abuse was the spiritual abuse. The word the Father gave my stepfather was filled with so much love, and I knew a truth that gave me pause to listen to that love-

...it is the goodness of God that leads men to repentance. Romans 2:4

I mailed the letter and my heart was changed because of the Father's words. The memories of the terror from my youth evaporated. God didn't give me amnesia from my past, but the shame of it was completely gone.

However, I say to you, love your enemy, bless the one who curses you, do something wonderful for the one who hates you,[d] and respond to the very ones who persecute you by praying for them. For that will reveal your identity as children of your heavenly Father. He is kind to all by bringing the sunrise to warm and rainfall to refresh whether a person does what is good or evil. Matt 54:44-45

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is an access point to needed changes in our DNA: our emotional DNA, our way of thinking, our way of responding... When we pray for our enemies, the atmosphere is changed, the land of mindsets shifts from land minds, to new minds. When I left the ministry after being dethroned as director, I was dethroned from more than that. The Father told me through many prophets to let my tongue cling to the roof of my mouth, and so I did. I watched as members went through divorces, children almost lost their lives, and the ministry itself was completely closed. I tried to hold onto things I shouldn't have, and God was so gracious to convince me to let go.

But what was my heart on the matter?

At first, I rejoiced. I felt vindicated until I sensed one of the sons was going to lose his life. I began to pray for the members of the ministry and I found myself repenting for not praying sooner. The accuser had come to me, relishing in my anger promising me vengeance disguised as justice. I had responded like James and John asking Jesus if He wanted me to call down fire and destroy them. That is not His way.

He had forgiven me for so much, why wouldn't he forgive them? Love covers over a multitude of sins was my anthem, but the revelation of those words didn't fall into the soil of my heart until I forgave my brothers and sisters in Christ. Our Father has called us to rule and reign.

When James and John asked Jesus if He wanted them to call fire down on the people who didn't receive Him two things stood out to me:

1.) They knew they could call fire down from heaven and Jesus knew it too, and

2.) He didn't want it done that way.

If I am a son of God, walking in all of the authority of Heaven, granted to me by Jesus, am I going to lop off ears or call down angels? Am I going to react or speak love? Remember, God is Love.